So, I've been off-line, AGAIN, for a while - but now I'm back. My old computer (the one I've used for years) finally died. I was unprepared, and transitioning to another, new PC was - shall we say "Difficult"? Yes, lets.

No sympathy, though - I really should have known better, been prepared. Truth, I should have planned for a move to a new PC a couple of years ago. I could have planned it, prepared for it, executed the back-up and transition at my leisure. But noooooo!

Now I've lost some files and data that I may never get back (one of the disks just really bit the dust hard), and some of my old, trusty hardware and software simply will NOT work with Windows Vista. (Tho I hear Windows 7 is much nicer)

But really - I'm in this bad position because of all those times I saw the signs of impending computer death and just thought "Well, if I put a band-aid on that - I can keep working. and I'll fix it for real TOMORROW!" ch-yeah, right!

Made me take a look at a few other things I was doing - and its more than a bit disturbing. I'm realizing that I'm letting several things slip - I make clever excuses to myself about how "well, y'know, I really should go research that some more before I start on it - just to be sure!" or "It would be easier to work on that if I had one of those doo-hickeys - but I don't, so I'll just wait until I GET one before I start on it!" or "I really want this one to be really, super good - So everything has to be PERFECT before I can work on it!"

But what I end up with, more often than not, is that I've wasted a lot of time "preparing", and Worrying, and just generally "Hemming-and-hawwing". Either I run out of time (in which case I try to rush SOMETHING out thats not my best effort) - or, worse, I've made the thing into SUCH a "burden" that I actually dread doing it (even if it should be something really cool and enjoyable).

If you saw it in a TV Sitcom, you'd probably think it was silly - if it wasn't so pathetic.

How many other places in my life am I sabotaging my own success? And more importantly, WHY?


Okay - I need to stop sniveling, now, and just get ON with stuff. I WILL be more diligent and focused! I will be ON GUARD for excuses to procrastinate! Weeding out the self-sabotage! I must be Constantly Vigilant against creating unnecessary obstacles that would only serve to bog me down!

Yeah. I'll start on that, first thing tomorrow morning. Right after breakfast. I should remember to eat something healthy. Maybe I can find a good book on eating better food?